inappropriate sharing at the picnic

I'm at a picnic or barbeque or some kind of outdoor party with friends. For some reason the conversation turns to a girl I used to know in high school, and I unexpectedly blurt out that I still have a crush on the girl, despite the fact that we haven't spoken in years, and I hadn't really thought about her much in months. My friends are bemused by this non-sequitur, and I feel strangely elated to have gotten it off my chest.